Fibromyalgia flare up. As those of you who have been following this site know, I usually try to stay to a medical or health topic. Once in a while, however, I think it’s a good thing to let you into my mind and heart. I think this is especially true when you might wonder if I always deal with my fibromyalgia like a trooper. Far from it dear readers. This is how I’ve been coping the past week or so.
I just looked up the allergy report for today. Everything is in the “red”. No wonder I’ve been feeling so lousy the past week or so. I’ve been coughing, sneezing, running a low temperature, and am very restless at night. From what the extended report indicates it should stay in the red the rest of this week…Goody!! There’s a couple of nasty viruses going around too and, even though I had my flu shot, I might have picked something up. Of course with all of this going on it means a fibromyalgia flare up too and I’m miserable with that too.
Right now there’s nothing good in my life. I hurt, I’m tired, I have no energy, I’m nauseated, and I’m depressed. Man, it’s fun to be me. Every symptom of the fibromyalgia has kicked in the past three days especially. I can’t focus, I can’t pray, I’m not interested in anything and I don’t even want to be talked to.
I’m trying very hard not to take it out on Ron or at work, the rest of the world can take care of itself. My house is dirty and I don’t care, we’re supposed to go to Randy’s (our son) Sat for Little Randy’s birthday and I could care less. If I could afford it I’d take this week off work just to regroup. I have two sewing projects I’ve been working on and they’re both just lying there waiting. Yes, maybe I’m feeling sorry for myself but, then again, I have to express these feeling somehow or they just get worse from keeping them bottled up.
I know this disease is something I have to live with and, for the most part, I can but once in a while… When “once in a while” hits I find it beneficial to concentrate on praying. I know that perhaps some that read this article don’t believe in prayer but I do. The harder it is for me to pray, the more important it is for me to do so. This is my prayer for this day. Not only for myself but for dear friends and our nation. If you feel the need please join me in praying for your loved ones, our nation and yourself.
Please help me this day to bear the pain of the fibromyalgia. Help me to stay positive and treat others as they should be treated, not necessarily how I would like to treat them. I need you today as I do all days but today is more urgent than some.
Thank you for being with me yesterday even though I didn’t talk to you. Your presence in my life is what keeps me putting one foot in front of the other many days especially when I hurt like I do today.
I ask that you be with Helen and her family as they make the adjustment to being without Clyde and I ask that you be with Larry and Nan. Help Nan feel better from her fibromyalgia and help Larry with his back. I ask that you be with President Obama, guide him down the right path and keep him from letting his own agenda be more important than yours. Our nation needs a strong leader and I pray that Mr. Obama changes from his present path and becomes that leader with your help.
Thank you for helping me today to deal with the pain, the brain fog, and the frustration. Thank you for leading me from this depression. Thank you for Ron, he’s my earthly rock. You are my eternal rock and I am glad that you are in my life.
All this I say, through your Son, Jesus Christ. Amen
Fibromyalgia flare up and prayer